My dashboard won’t do the endless scroll! It’ll just stop and I looked at my settings and it’s still on. Am I going crazy or is this a problem other people have too?
I can’t stop thinking about this guy that I almost dated. We were friends for so long and a little over a year ago, I finally expressed that there were feelings and then we went on a date.
There were parts of our friendship that he would just drop off the face of the earth until I texted him or contacted him in any way. But, I could always talk to him and count on him if and I hope he knew I would have been there for him as well.
So then, after our date, it went great by the way and I’m not just saying that either. I was concerned that he’d do the thing again where I put too much effort and he just ignores it or takes a million years to respond(he did that like 3 or 4 times over the 3 years of friendship) and I told him that I was concerned about it. He legit said that I had nothing to worry about because I was important to him and he’d make the effort.
So about a two months after our date I texted him and called him out on ignoring me. I ended up sending 4 long texts over two days, he only responded once by the way. When he did finally reply, he said that he was sorry and that he’s not doing that to only me, he just doesn’t think about texting/talking to people he doesn’t see every day.
WOW, thanks. It made me feel so shitty about myself, because am I really that forgettable? So I deleted him number, I deleted him off my friends on Facebook, I didn’t see him, I didn’t talk to him.
Now, for the last couple of weeks I keep thinking about him. How he’s doing, what he’s doing, what would we be doing if we were still talking? Would we have started dating? I keep getting on Facebook and I keep thinking about adding him again. He was one of my best friends and I feel like I’ve lost a huge chunk of my life because I can’t even talk to him. Would he even talk to me?
I wonder if I should add him anyway and see what plays out. Living life with no regrets and all of that jazz. And if he doesn’t add me, then whatever, because then I can finally let go of him and he’s a dick.
Everyone always says to live life to the fullest and live life with no regrets?
There was no closure so I’m sure that’s why I’m feeling like this, but I can’t help but think something good slipped through my fingers